Finding My Footing in the Fall

My camera sits in the corner, casually waiting for me to pick it up.
But when I do the pictures I take feel generic and uninspired.
(Although that’s no surprise to me because lately I feel generic and uninspired.)

Things that normally roll off my back, leave me in a tizzy.
Little things annoy me and I snap at the children for being children.
I find myself just sitting and staring.  At nothing.

This is not me.
I am not this.

“It’s too early for this”, I tell myself.
I don’t usually bump into The Blah until winter.
Fall is supposed to be my season.
I’m supposed to hit my stride in fall.
As the oppressive heat fades, I begin to perk up.
As the summer slump slips away, I come to life.

This is what I do.
What I always do.
So what’s wrong with me?

The weather is gorgeous.
The smells are perfect.
The sights are glorious.
And yet…
I only seem to stumble along,
Making do and trying not to slip.

But today?  Today I’m fighting back.
Today I’m claiming that Fall is Mine.
And I will celebrate it.
And I will take it all in.
And I will pick up my camera and find my footing again.

Fall is here.
This is my time.
Not only the leaves are changing.

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6 Responses to Finding My Footing in the Fall
  1. CJ
    October 4, 2011 | 11:15 am

    You go girl!!

  2. Jil
    October 4, 2011 | 12:00 pm

    I love Fall, but this year has been different. I see more people struggling. Hang in there, the best is yet to come! Remember that you are special! Enjoy the sunshine and the beauty that surrounds you! You are of great worth!!

  3. molly
    October 4, 2011 | 2:11 pm

    I love this. You are strong. You go out into this changing world and enjoy it. Breathe it in. Inspiration is waiting.

  4. Jen
    October 4, 2011 | 3:25 pm

    Good for you. You show those blahs.

  5. domestic extraordinaire
    October 5, 2011 | 8:11 am

    You take it back!