I need a sign.

The past few weeks have been a blur.
I remember snippets of time, but I get it all bobbled up in my head.
I am tired, but energetic.
I am weary, but happy.
I am busy, but it is good.

This past weekend, I had the chance to celebrate a friend’s 16th birthday.

I was there to take pictures, but also to make memories.
(And we certainly made some memories!)

As we were walking around the city and taking pictures, I started thinking about the upcoming weekend.
I’m getting ready for an friend’s wedding this weekend.  A good friend, a forever friend.
And I am photographing the entire thing.
Sometimes when I think about it, I get really excited.
Other times, it just makes me want to vomit.
Oh, good heavens…what if I royally screw this up?

I chastise myself for dipping into the well of doubt.
And I begin to give myself a little pep talk:
You know what you are doing.
It will be okay.
You are your own worst judge.
SO STOP FREAKING OUT!
You won’t be perfect, but that’s okay.
Just look at how far you’ve come.

I know, I know.
I just wish I really knew it would all be okay.
I just wish I had a sign…which is crazy because I don’t even really believe in signs and…and..and…
And right then (I kid you not), I looked up and there it was:

I’m linking up once again at The Extraordinary-Ordinary for Just Write.

4 Responses to I need a sign.
  1. Galit Breen
    November 15, 2011 | 1:49 am

    Oh yes, that *is* a good sign.

    And although we have just “met” – I am so very proud of you for seeing it, really seeing it.

    (Go you! You’re so going to rock this!)

  2. punkinmama
    November 15, 2011 | 2:16 pm

    Enjoy every minute of that wedding and tell the doubt & insecurity to take a hike! You are going to be awesome!

    And I love that sign!

  3. Christy M.
    November 15, 2011 | 4:43 pm

    I think we all need more good signs!

  4. Barb
    November 15, 2011 | 5:03 pm

    I’m a big believer in signs but I’ve never had one that literal 🙂 Hope you’re able to relax and enjoy your friend’s special day!