i need a moment…or two…or two hundred
just to breathe and hear my own breath
to be still and marvel at the wonder growing inside me
to be quiet and hear nothing but quietness


i need a moment…or two…or two hundred
just to sit and refocus
to pray
to think
to reconnect with myself
to look again at who i am
what i want
what i need


to think about who needs me
and who i need
and to appreciate them
and allow them a chance to appreciate me


no one can appreciate me right now
i’m too grumpy
even if they did
my ears couldnt hear it
my eyes couldnt see it
i dont even know if my heart could feel it


i feel empty
and alone
even while surrounded by all the chaos


i have nothing else to give
i am not who i want to be
who i need to be
who i know i can be


i need a moment…or two…or two hundred
and then i’ll be ok

i hope

No Responses to Solitude
  1. Camille
    August 29, 2008 | 3:57 pm

    I have run away before. When I just can’t take it anymore, I just get in my car and go. Sometimes I drive for a couple of hours, one time I drove to Seagull Book and bought the newest Anita Stansfield book (even though we were completely broke) and sat in my car for 4 hours in the middle of winter and read. I turned my cell phone off and just enjoyed the quiet.

    Hang in there. I understand. I have been there.

  2. Peapodsquadmom
    August 29, 2008 | 9:57 pm

    Anything I can do?