I need a sign.

The past few weeks have been a blur.
I remember snippets of time, but I get it all bobbled up in my head.
I am tired, but energetic.
I am weary, but happy.
I am busy, but it is good.

This past weekend, I had the chance to celebrate a friend’s 16th birthday.

I was there to take pictures, but also to make memories.
(And we certainly made some memories!)

As we were walking around the city and taking pictures, I started thinking about the upcoming weekend.
I’m getting ready for an friend’s wedding this weekend.  A good friend, a forever friend.
And I am photographing the entire thing.
Sometimes when I think about it, I get really excited.
Other times, it just makes me want to vomit.
Oh, good heavens…what if I royally screw this up?

I chastise myself for dipping into the well of doubt.
And I begin to give myself a little pep talk:
You know what you are doing.
It will be okay.
You are your own worst judge.
You won’t be perfect, but that’s okay.
Just look at how far you’ve come.

I know, I know.
I just wish I really knew it would all be okay.
I just wish I had a sign…which is crazy because I don’t even really believe in signs and…and..and…
And right then (I kid you not), I looked up and there it was:

I’m linking up once again at The Extraordinary-Ordinary for Just Write.

4 Responses to I need a sign.
  1. Galit Breen
    November 15, 2011 | 1:49 am

    Oh yes, that *is* a good sign.

    And although we have just “met” – I am so very proud of you for seeing it, really seeing it.

    (Go you! You’re so going to rock this!)

  2. punkinmama
    November 15, 2011 | 2:16 pm

    Enjoy every minute of that wedding and tell the doubt & insecurity to take a hike! You are going to be awesome!

    And I love that sign!

  3. Christy M.
    November 15, 2011 | 4:43 pm

    I think we all need more good signs!

  4. Barb
    November 15, 2011 | 5:03 pm

    I’m a big believer in signs but I’ve never had one that literal 🙂 Hope you’re able to relax and enjoy your friend’s special day!