Remember when I was all I-have-confidence-in-confidence-alone and I posted pictures of my legs on the internet?
Well, that same day I applied for a job.
It’s an online-work-from-home job, but it’s a real honest-to-goodness job.
And I would have to find childcare of some sort for at least a few times a week.
And while I do have mixed emotions about that, I think it would be good – for me and for them.
I love my children and I love being home with them…
But at the same time I think it would do us all some good if we had a little break from each other.
And then there’s also the I-don’t-feel-like-I-contribute-enough.
Which is silly because Marshall has never, ever (not even once) insinuated that I don’t contribute enough to our family.
(And I know that just being here and keeping things up and running is more than enough.)
But I feel like I could (and want to!) do more to help out financially around here.
And not that money is the end-all-be-all, but I think it would help me feel a little more accomplished.
(It sounds silly to even write that, but I know I’m not alone on this.)
So the job I applied for was a shoot-for-the-moon kinda thing.
I may not be the most qualified for it and they may have already dropped my application in the recycling bin.
But I did jump.
I did put myself out there.
And it lit a fire somewhere in my mind, in my heart.
(But it’s a small fire and I’m having a hard time seeing very far with such little light.)
So I’ve done a lot of praying.
And a lot of thinking.
And some more praying.
And reading.
And thinking some more.
And I have yet to come to any conclusions.
So what do you think?
What can you see me doing?
Proud of you. 🙂
Go for it!
You are a beautiful writer and photographer. If you can find a way to make money doing that, then you should.
Your photography is absolutely beautiful, Bridget. I could see you doing something with that for sure.
I think you should be a writer!! …and somehow add photography to that!
Oh, so many memories! I think I’ve felt this way all of my life. When my kids were little I felt exactly as you do. I remember when I finally got a job (part-time) and left them. I think it did us both good. They learned to appreciate me and I appreciated them so much more. And, I had some money to help with all of the little extras!
Three years ago when we moved to the country – and I do mean country. There wasn’t the job opportunities that I had had in the past living close to the city. So for a few years now I haven’t worked and it’s been hard feeling like I wasn’t contributing anymore. My sweet husband has never said I needed to, but like you I felt like it was something I needed to do. I only have one daughter left at home and she’s a senior in high school so I’m home alone all day. Okay, so now I really felt like a slug – not contributing or doing anything that I felt was of worth all day long! (I could only clean the house so much). I started working from home a few weeks ago and I feel so much better. I cut my hair off and started to have a “career-girl” mentality. haha! No, but really it’s been wonderful to have something that has given me a little bit more purpose! I probably won’t make a ton of money, but hey I’m doing something that at least helps out somewhat.
I hope it works out for you. But enjoy your kids too! They grow up and move on way too fast! You’re a special mom! Listen to your heart and you’ll know what it is you should do! Let us know how it goes!!
**Fingers crossed for you**
Regardless of what happens with that job, just having the courage to put yourself out there is more than a lot of people would do. (And if they’re smart, they’ll scoop you up in a heartbeat.) Will be rooting for you whatever the future holds…
I am excited to see what happens for you!
Steph