I am a Christian(but I’m not a good one)

I have had this post sitting in my queue for quite some time.
I have visited and revisited it.
I have edited and re-edited it.
I have prayed about it and talked about it and meditated upon it.
And I wasn’t sure that I would ever post it.
But…here it goes:

I am a Christian.

But I am not a good one.

I believe in one God-the maker of heaven and earth, the creator of things both seen and unseen.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, who inspires, encourages and directs us.
I believe in the forgiveness of my sins through the resurrected body of Jesus Christ.
I believe in life everlasting.

Just because I believe it doesn’t mean I understand it.

I believe that the bible was divinely inspired, but written by humans.
I believe the bible may not be perfect, but it is perfectly the way it’s supposed to be.
I believe that it’s not really the words that matter
as much as the meaning of the words
coupled with the inspiration of God
that is most important.

Just because I believe the bible might have some inconsistencies, doesn’t mean I think it’s invalid or unimportant.

I believe that God gives us unlimited, undeserved grace.
I believe that God gives us unlimited, undeserved mercy.
I believe that God gives us unlimited, undeserved chances.
And I believe that, as Christians, we are called to be like Jesus Christ-who demonstrated these perfectly.
I believe that although I may not be able to really comprehend it or even be successful at it, I am still expected to try.

Just because I teach it, doesn’t mean I always live it.

I believe that God is love.
And out of love…grace, mercy, compassion, understanding and thoughtfulness flow freely.

Just because I know love – and know it abundantly – doesn’t mean I always show it.
Just because I know love – and know it abundantly – doesn’t mean I always accept it.
Just because I know love – and know it abundantly – doesn’t mean I always feel it.
Just because I know love – and know it abundantly – doesn’t mean I always savor it.
Just because I know love – and know it abundantly – doesn’t mean I delight in it.

I am a Christian.

But I am not a good one.

But (thanks be to God)
God is love.
And even when I don’t show it, accept it, feel it, savor it, delight in it…
God is bigger than me and my failures.
God is bigger than me.
And God is LOVE.

The greatest of these is LOVE.

10 Responses to I am a Christian(but I’m not a good one)
  1. Mary @ A Simple Twist of Faith
    May 10, 2011 | 6:43 am

    What a beautiful way to start my morning reflection, thank you!

  2. Stephanie
    May 10, 2011 | 1:03 pm

    I echo the words of the man in Mark…..
    ” Lord I believe, help my unbelief.”

  3. Heather
    May 10, 2011 | 1:17 pm

    I think we may be twins. đŸ˜‰

  4. Kimberly
    May 10, 2011 | 1:44 pm

    love it, I think you express all those things beautifully and honestly.

  5. Andrea
    May 10, 2011 | 5:39 pm

    Absolutely awesome!! Very well said!

  6. Felisha
    May 10, 2011 | 6:40 pm

    You know Bridget you should be a writer when you grow up. You know just how to express things in a way that I understand. I am impressed with all your wonderful thoughts and glad that you have the courage to share them with others. You are such a wonderful person and I am so glad to call you friend. May God continue to bless you and your family.

  7. Gramama
    May 10, 2011 | 6:56 pm

    Ditto what Felisha said:)

  8. punkinmama
    May 11, 2011 | 3:18 pm

    I’m not a good one either, but I’m glad I am one! Very well said!

  9. Dawn
    May 20, 2011 | 11:53 pm

    Maya Angelou has a great essay about being surprised when people (especially young people) say “I am a Christian” – she is surprised because in her opinion of herself, she is working on it, she works on it every (almost every . . . some days better than others) day . . . she thinks becoming a Christian is a path, a journey.

    I can live with that.

    So perhaps not a bad Christian . . . but a learning, growing, developing Christian.

  10. Ghassan
    August 18, 2011 | 12:10 pm

    You are absolutely correct. I cannot say that you aren’t a good christian but I would rather say that you are a real Christian the religion mercy and brotherhood that Profit Jesus brought to his people.